Something occured to me a while ago, and the problem is, i cant say anything about it. I dont really want to ither. These are some of the thoughts that ran through my head...



With so much pain I finally broke.
What happened crushed everything left
I've been hurt like this before, but I can't handle it this time.
With all the other shit, it just adds.
Everythin gthat has been happening isnt worth comparing to this.
You hurt me in a way that I never thought possible.
You said you wouldnt hurt me for anything.
Yet look what you did.
I cant tell my friends even my boyfriend.
So much pain fills my body as the beats get harder.
Is it my heart or what you did?
Thoughts of suicide enter my mind.
I thought I was as low as I could be.
It's different now because I gained a shovel.
You hurt me so much.
Now I just want to die.
No one can possibly understand.
Please just leave me alone..
As I decide whether or not to slit my wrists...
The pain grows stronger...
A slight incision and it could all be over..
As I take my knife out its up to me now..
Close to skin, and about to slice...............



Am I in heaven or hell where I belong?....
Am I dead yet?....
No because something stopped me.....


What is that thing?....
I dont know....