So many nights that i surrendered my final innocence to you,
Placed my foolish heart in the destruction of your palm,
Lay down for you to tread on me, blinded by false hope,
That the one i loved would bring me strength, not harm.
My mind shattered only jaded visions left there behind my eyes,
That i could uncover the good beneath your skin,
The key to my desire, to live life the fairytale,
To unlock the bolted door and walk on in.
Your eyes suggest a demon mind, enclosing all thats kind,
What made me think that he could care for me?
He makes me feel inhuman, beaten down, wounded like a dog,
All the fire in Hell could not burn as much as he.
Red from when he hit me, purple from when it bruised,
Tears have fallen but he swept them all away,
He changes momentarily, unpredictable as the wind,
His mood holds all power to lead my heart astray.
One meaningless sorry, is all i get from all this grief,
His emotion comes and goes, as when he pleases,
I could spit on him and in the same moment hold him close,
Like the gentle flower in amongst the breezes.
I swore to him i hate him, but i love him eternally,
Its really that i hate what he has done,
But i'll never have enough courage to up and leave he.
I know in my soul that he's the one.