Now I got my time to think
Time to get off the brink
Time to take a breath and blink
It’s amazing when I realize
How much I should have been penalized
All the problems I caused, all the lies
All the shit I did, just to get by
My own mind was surprised
At the depths of my being,
The feeling of self preservation that can arise
But now, the tribulations are over and I have survived
What really happened though, I couldn’t surmise
One constant blur, that passed past my eyes
Unwavering desire to get my wishes
Nothing could deter me, not money or bitches
But on the way I met witches
That hexed my mission
I took on these curses and said no contrition
I ignored and denied apparitions
That alluded to the error of my expedition
But my head was so strong that I wouldn’t listen
I lost blessings, that I’ll forever be missing
They won’t come back around, but I just hope my soul will be found
Somewhere along the way it fell to the ground
The wet murky mud, was better than my cold heart now
I send out my call with this new sound now
I call for my soul and I call loud now
I know somewhere in a large crowd how
It hears my call but it won’t come down
I need to learn my lesson, leave my mouth dumb
My limbs lame, and my eyes numb
The sins I’ve seen and committed
I’m lucky that I won’t be committed
I have sinned sins that can’t be omitted
I’m ready to face life now, so come wit it
I have a new found spring my step
I’m ready to get a new rep
My family’s my core, mommy, daddy and some more
To keep my mind straight and free from these whores
Ladies want to get with me quickly
My innocent body’s enticing like crack to Whitney
Like money to 50, like white people to the academy
Like Ashton to Demi, like Afleck to jenny, I’m still stalling
Because I’m still calling, wishing against certainty, so disconcertingly
I live expeditiously, with expectant, fervent urgency
I know my Lord’s watching, I’m learning see
In school I’ll work for A’s, no more C’s and D’s
I know now that life’s not a breeze
I need to spend more time on my knees
Pleading with God to have mercy on me
I know you can do all Lord, small or great
I just hope I’m not doing, too little, too late