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06-17-06, 09:50 PM
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I have a lot to learn...
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I used to have what Myself and Gladiator are talking about. That certain outlook on life... "No matter what I do in thsi life, it won't matter. Nothing will ever matter. This life is so short, and so pointless, if I died right now it wouldn't make a difference. I am so insignificant. etc."
But since then i've learnt a lot. I've learnt to enjoy life, because life is amazing. The fact that I exist is something that makes me happy. It might sound stupid, but it is a lot more complicated than it sounds. A man traveling across a field encountered a tiger. He fled, the tiger after him. Coming to a precipice, he caught hold of the root of a wild vine and swung himself down over the edge. The tiger sniffed at him from above. Trembling, the man looked down to where, far below, another tiger was waiting to eat him. Only the vine sustained him. Two mice, one white and one black, little by little started to gnaw away the vine. The man saw a luscious strawberry near him. Grasping the vine with one hand, he plucked the strawberry with the other. Delicious!
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06-17-06, 10:19 PM
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yea werd thanx for the advice....i've become VERY lost in life...lol trust me i mean LOST...just about the most lost u can get...i was gon start working out anyway but i didnt know it helped wit ur depression i'll defintly try workin out now  |
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06-28-06, 10:18 AM
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I dont really believe in the whole thing about "a person's worth is defined by the legacy they left behind". News flash, not everyone leaves a legacy, in fact more than half of everybody on this planet die and dont leave a legacy beyond the minds of their family and friends, unless you were famous or shit.
People in africa die everyday, they leave no legacy, they lived with no benefit of happiness. In the end, we are all full of worth, we just have to kinda make ourselves useful, but some people are just deficient like that. We're just meant to live ascetic. Im not ready to die. I have this deep need for a soulmate. =P If I died without having a love of my life, I dont think I could be happy even in the afterlife. Thats all I've ever wanted out of my life really. No riches, no record deals, no nothing, just somebody who could put up with me forever. =P
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06-17-06, 03:07 PM
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I Got Money In Tha Bank
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naw im not ready
my life is just beginning im just now starting to write my story...
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My Niggas Dont Groove We Jus Bust A Move N Fuck Bout 4 Bops A Day We WIldlife Wit it... www.myspace.com/imthakingpsc |
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06-17-06, 07:56 PM
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~Break Bred or Play Dead~
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I dont have suicidal tendencies....but im not ready 2 die
due 2 the fact that i have not accomplished everything that i want 2 accomplish
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06-17-06, 10:00 PM
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I don't feel insignificant, I just have a condition that makes it feel as if I'm not alive called Derealization. It's not that I feel insignificant, it's that each day I have to fight for a sense of what "real" is, and some days it's just very hard for me to constantly remind myself that this IS life and I just spend the day in my room trying to sleep of a day. It's pathetic really, but I've got too much talent to let myself slip into never-was. Some days it's too much to handle and I slip into my own pecimism, and picture a future where I'm going to be lost in sub-concious and I'm afraid I'm slowing slipping into insanity, but I can always count on tomarrow for a better today. Everyday is a battle, you win some and lose some but there's no such thing as a casualty in a battle with self unless you let there be. So I'm living.
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06-17-06, 10:05 PM
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I have a lot to learn...
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Nothing actually matters... If you enjoy sleeping through days, go for it. If it makes you depressed then dont do it.
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06-17-06, 10:20 PM
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1926
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It doesn't make me happy, it's nothing more than an easy way out. It makes me happy when I go out and push myself and get a panic attack, but am able to work my way through it and be fine because I feel acomplished afterwards and I know I'm getting closer to conquoring my anxiety dissorder... But sometimes I don't have the energy for that, so I quit, and sleep, and wait until I'm stronger enough to handle my shit head on.
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06-17-06, 10:30 PM
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yea life is all about conqouring ur obstacles...i mean i may be depressed but im tryin ta get out of it all...even though i dont feel like doin nuthin but just layin on my ass watchin tv drowning in my depression like i usually do i used ta write and record shit of my own but like i said for the past few months i been completly spiritually dead i just couldnt hang on to it no more and like i said before when u feel worthless u dont have the heart ta do nuthin so i cant write without just losin ALL hope so my emptyness is getting in the way of draining my depression lol i can get a lil complicated but because of what i said i quit writing and recording until i can get a steady focus on life again hip hop is a reflection of self....how can u be a emcee if u got nuthin ta reflect off of...know what i mean |
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06-17-06, 10:45 PM
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1926
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'Sad how bad times make good music
Hope I can maintain this great depression and leave myself guessing if I can out do the former until the end' - Alias Keep writing, it's a good form of therapy aswell. |
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06-17-06, 10:50 PM
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yea but u gotta believe in urself when u write...and i have NO belief in myself at this point almost everything i do is worthless untill i can get myself into a position where anything is worth it |
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06-17-06, 10:56 PM
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1926
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Maybe posting some shit everyone feels and getting some props will help you find a sense of worth in yourself.
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06-17-06, 11:01 PM
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yea defintnly...that could easily help...part of it is cuz nobodys around ta see my rhymes, yes im a closet rapper...but not cuz im shy but cuz like the town im in doesnt do ANYTHING wit music so im the only one doin music out of 10,000 people in the town...and when u come from a small town everybody knows everybody and if u dont their atleast related to somebody u know. so u know how people gon react ta shit i been keepin my rhymes and everything to myself and to whatever site i go on ta protect myself from people thinkin im just fucked up and shit cuz i got enough shit ta deal wit everything else the way things is..if i was in a spot where it was more accepted or i knew it wasnt gonna be a problem tellin people here that i write then i wouldnt mind but i know how the people would be here but yea i could start droppin shit..that'll defitnly help |
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06-17-06, 11:21 PM
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I have a lot to learn...
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I wish I could explain to you guys the way I feel... It's so easy to be happy, it just depends on the state of your mind. If you look at things with a clear mind, you'll see them as they are and be content. If you look at things with a pessemistic mind, you'll see things in a negative light. Feelings arent things that just happen, you make them happen with the way you think.
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06-17-06, 11:23 PM
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nope. i am too fearful of the afterlife.
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