if it took laughs to save me, id resite what i knows lost
as i lye on my closed plot, watchin myself die in my own thoughts
with u, why am i so soft, a man but as a savage he wept
lost in a hole, from my soul, as big as a galaxies depth
from all tha extra baggage he kept, he knows not of tha inner beast
nor tha joys of a succesful life, or the love being a winner brings
i bet they wont remember me, when my tombs put on its site
all i seen was black, the day my heart cracked, n darkness took on this light
so much put on his mind, how could he handle tha strain
love dismantled tha flame, a mere candle in rain
if handled it breaks, i caught this cancer in june
the question, wasnt deprression, so how could i find the answers in you
she wouldnt expand her views, so how could she see tha hurt
promised a ride, to tha skys, but steadily put me beneath tha dirt
always nsync with burns, the way she mixed gasoline wit words
its like i was dreamin first, until u look up n see tha clouds move
then in a second, u see tha heavans, fall n crush everything around you
need ta run but dont think your allowed to, u scream but everything is soundproof
uve just been beat without clues, of why any of this shit happened anyhow
its like your stuck, inside of love, as u beg god "ill do anything if u get me out"
i know your thinkin with me now, even though your thoughts is bruised
i'll never get my head straight, i'll face everyday, in mental solitude