Unbalanced World

i lived my life, where i was never accepted
even though i didn't try, i was still rejected
never suspected, that a reason was my family
dad an unemployed drunk, but that aint the tragedy
mom worked 2 jobs, and we barely came out even
she deserved better, but had no time for dreamin
got me steamin, and paps leaving.... such a bitch
said "i only was with you, cause your daddy was rich"
i could never make up, for all the things mom gave me
kicked outta her home at 15 cause she was having a baby
it seems like my fault, but she tells me im a fool
but it doesnt really matter because im hated at school
an unwritten code, youre only cool if you have alot of friends
suppose to awe and drool over the latest fashion trends
but i dont blend very well with the every-day crowd
i can feel the hate, even though its not spoken out loud
and like a cloud in the sky, passing by not making a sound
until a storm brews and my innocent body takes a pound
ive hit the ground many times, but i always rise above
they may force their hate upon me, but cant take away my love
im a dove in this world, tryin to fly freely through air
but instead im hurled, cause its a fact life isnt fair
you can swear all you want, even try 1000 prayers
gotta learn to do it on your own, cause not everyone cares
ive made alot of mistakes, but i dont let them ache
because whats the point of trying, when everone else is fake
for heavens sake, why cant things run smooth and work
how does one make a respected repuation by being a jerk?...
i live in an unbalanced world, every day theres disruptions
life is like a volcano...its filled with constant eruptions
theres going to be corruption, but i do the best with whats given
cause things couldve been alot worse, im just thankful im livin