What an ironic dillemma I'm in//
it seems I'm allergic to my own skin//
sitting in my room coughing and weezing//
stumbling out the door while im gasping while struggling breathing//
just realizing my flesh//
will be the reason for my death//
waking up at three in the morning//
my body steered by my endless mourning//
quickly gaining pain and losing faith//
craving a spliff but sipping and eighth//
steadily poisoning myself//
staring at the many pictures lining my shelf//
portraits of happiness along with ignorance and lies//
in reality my soul is living but everyday a piece dies//
continuing to disbeleive but ashamed of my blasphemy//
how can I love a God who no longer cares for me?//
I'm told I should be greatful of my spoils//
more fragrances than Nefertiri had scented oils//
im only sixteen years old//
but with a hate for life and my religion so bold//
"Nejla at least you're alive//
get an education because for perfection you must strive"//
suffocated by my own greed//
snatching what I want, taking for granted what I need//
surprised by my virginity//
such a sexual person infused with pure naivety//
yet always denying a nigga get inside me//
falling in lovew with a man who's younger//
yet surpassing me because he's wiser and stronger//
watching the burning sun rise//
all the while contemplating my own demise//
he's doing his best to assure me I have a purpose//
although his words make sense his logic seems worthless//
staring in the mirror hating all my features and my flaws/
the shape of my eyes the contour of my jaw//
the curve of my hips//
softness of my skin and lips//
feeling even uglier after pretty niggas throw compliments//
I'm so fucked up in the head//
motionless listening to Illmatic lying in my bed//
I'm falling too fast and giving my heart to too many people//
making them love me then hating them revealing my evil//
wishing that I had One Love//
but Life's A Bitch and the only exctacy is above//
hating it when my mom cries//
yet letting her know I'm plotting my demise//
increaseing her flowing tears//
while she's voicing her fears//
I'm holding my pain in my spirit//
'cause none of my "friends" can be bothered to hear it//
hating the world now more than ever//
aware that the day I find happiness is never//
befriending thugs and bastards in the slums//
deep voices and dangerous smoothness offering to make me cum//
they continue making gestures trying to catch my eye//
being slick staring at my breasts trying to touch my thigh//
I'm wishing I was stronger while letting herb numb the pain//
'cause life is parrallel to hell and i can't maintain//
it's a struggle always trying to hide my hate//
Allah and Satan in my soul about my destiny they debate//
got me wondering if I'm to be consumed by flames//
if Hell is my destination then no point in holding back my pain//
let my anger cause fear in those know my name...

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nice peice
better than what I thought it was goin be
alot of personal lyrics like you gettin some shit off ya breast..I mean chest.
rhyme scheme was basic, but you make up for that in content
I feel ya pain too. especially this part;

the shape of my eyes the contour of my jaw//
the curve of my hips//
softness of my skin and lips//
feeling even uglier after pretty niggas throw compliments//

^I can relate to that part. no homo
SMH, keep strong, girl.
lol, but yeah, this would be decent if it was audio, cos it flowed quite well.
but ummmm, thats it.
oh, next time lose the slashes..

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lmao...yeah i jus didnt know how to type it out i thought it would be easier to read if i put it in bars...smh @ "getting some shit off ya breast'...niggas

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word @ my dope lil sis!!!!!!!!!

thx for the feedback...y arent more fuckas peepin this :sad:

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shpank u for the constructive critiscism

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uppin' this for my lil sis and shit. ~_~

If you want to help your little sis then maybe you should clue her in to the fact that each forum has a set a rules... Rules that, aparently she over looked before posting this.