I learned that God doesn't always use the best of us, but he can use all of us.

I noticed in your post that you ended your prayer in Gods name, in The Bible,

John 15:16, Jesus said,

" You have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that you

should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain: that

whatever you shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you. 17 These

things I command you, that you love one another. "

We are to pray to the Father, in Jesus' name, also in John 16:23-27 he

elaborates.

23“And in that day you will ask Me nothing. Most assuredly, I say to you,

whatever you ask the Father in My name He will give you. 24Until now you have

asked nothing in My name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full.

25“These things I have spoken to you in figurative language; but the time is

coming when I will no longer speak to you in figurative language, but I will

tell you plainly about the Father. 26In that day you will ask in My name, and I

do not say to you that I shall pray the Father for you; 27for the Father

Himself loves you, because you have loved Me, and have believed that I came

forth from God. 28I came forth from the Father and have come into the world.

Again, I leave the world and go to the Father.”

The Bible says, We have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit (John 16:15)

and also promises "We can be confident that the good works God has begun in us

will be perfected" (Philippians 1:5) also that "We can do ALL things THROUGH

Christ, who strengthens us" (Philippians 4:13) also that "We cannot be

separated from the love of God" (Romans 8:35-39)


Lately The Lord has really been working in me, this is going to be a little

long but it's worth the read. I've been saved since I was 13, but I never

really sought or had a personal relationship with him, I would pray and from

time to time I would think he would answer my prayers, but not all of them. I

really wasn't living to the fullest he had planned for me. I'll be straight up,

I was lustful, from time to time I would watch porn, not willingly but in

moments of weakness I would succumb and feel awful after (Conviction, not

Condemnation), but I never understand what to do, or how to change it, I was

still smoking weed, having bad thoughts and just pretty down and depressed. It

wasn't until I hit a point where I got on my knees and prayed to the Father in

Jesus' name, that I would surrender all I am, all my ways, all I think, and all

I am to him, to be honest I would ask for forgiveness and say 'I repent' but

its not saying you repent of your sins, its the action. When he started working

in me, the first step was conquering lust, I learned to just suffer the flesh

and eventually it stops complaining about what it wants when you just ignore

it, and meditate on scripture, on things Jesus said, I just kept remembering

how Jesus said, 'If you love me you follow these things", he doesn't want me to

just tell him I love him, he wants to see it in my actions, in my following of

what he asked of us, and in moments of weakness I would "Bring every thought

into captivity unto obedience in Christ" (2 Corinthians 10:5). From that moment

on (were talking the last month, thats how new this is for me) but from then on

every day is so amazing, I never knew, me OF ALL PEOPLE, could actually have

such joy, a joy in The Lord that others had, that I so badly wanted, and from

there I kept seeing and hearing teachings on renewing my mind, I was in a bad

habbit of getting mad at people for the littlest things, I would let it go but

the fact that someone would wake me up early on accident and in my head I would

say stuff like "This MF'er", I had to work on renewing my mind and 'Bringing

every thought into captivity unto obedience in Christ', when I started doing

that and had success, my sights were set on weed, and I'll be honest, the first

day I did good until about noon when the test came and I failed miserabley, I

got mad and got some weed, smoked, felt convicted, but I was determined to try

again the next day, and I did, and almost at the exact same time as the day

before I was tested, but I put my faith in The Lord, in his promises, he said

he is our Helper, our Stength, our Refuge, our Fortress, and I would combat the

temptations with scripture, (I also had my mom praying in the Spirit --- Thank

you so much Lord), but with all those things, I was actually able to pass the

test, literally after my weakest moment when I was just sitting on the floor in

my kitchen fighting the flesh, I felt I had to stand up and go outside, and

from then on I started to feel really good and I was like wow, He is helping

me, he is my Strength, and this is comming from someone who tried to quit

smoking weed a million times, but it wasn't until I relied on Him, and His

strength that I was actually able to make change, (Last Thursday was the day I failed, so on Friday I tried again, and that was the day I, with Him, succeeded), I haven't smoked, nor had the

desire to, (I live with someone who still smokes, but I am confident the goods

works God has begun in him WILL BE PEREFECTED). Since then I have been able to have Joy in all things and Its amazing, I can't even do justice in describing the difference between how I was and where I am now, and thats only in a week! But something cool that helped me was, at one point David from the bible, had just gone through some pretty hard stuff, I think he thought his wife was murdered and his village burned but instead of questioning The Lord, getting angry, he prayed and praised him, and little did he know, he was 8 days away from becomming KING and being reunited with his family ( I heard this little teaching two weeks ago, kinda funny, I never knew, I was 8 days away from the amazing changes God has made in, so you never know, just TRUST IN HIM)


Sorry that was really long but I know someone out there may find comfort in knowing they aren't the only one struggling. Also anyone who wants to laugh or mock, thats fine, even you, I wrote this for.

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