6/26/2005

Darkness steals my vision without asking,
And I cascade into the depths of a dream?
Scared and perhaps somewhat knowing on what will come,
But the ways of the mind are always a mystery?
I fall into a world of light and darkness,
Such is my life in reality?
I walk upon a long road,
In the middle of all the madness?
One side is the dark,
Filled with obscene things?
Demonic prostitutes, all lined up to take me?
Creatures with no name?
Horrific images of the past, present and what is to come?
The other side, however, is the light?
Filled with happiness, hope, and love?
Celestial beings lure me in with their beauty?
Their heavenly music, and their kind smiles?
Deceived by these things before,
Women with their feign virtuousness and kindness,
All to rob me of my innocence?
?Just one touch?, they say?
The words echo through the darkness,
And the demons chant it?
Death licks its lips hungrily,
Waiting, always waiting for me to reach the edge?
And every moment, I venture closer to it?
Embracing the darkness, the endless fear?
They laugh,
As I gradually walk towards the shadows?
But a soft hand grasps my shoulder,
Seizing me in place?
Fear tears inside of me,
As I look up, impatiently waiting for my fatality?
Stunned, to find that I am blinded by a glorious luminosity...
A pleasant face peers down on me,
Beautiful and flawlessly pure?
I am consumed in awe and a sense of trust?
The demons hiss words of fury,
Knowing that they will not win this fight?
Praying to God incessantly,
That this is not a game, but reality?
With a song-like laugh,
The heavenly being says, ?This is very much real.?
I take Her hand,
And She showed me to a land of promise and light?
Not to the dark anymore, even though it visits me sometimes,
In the confinements of my mind?
But She is always there to guide me back,
To where I truly belong?
In the ever-lasting light of God?
And I wake up,
To the same, heedless life I continue living in?
But I finally found hope in this deep void of mine,
That is now filled with love and knowing?
I have finally accepted you into my existence?
Thank you, Lord, my God in Heaven?