Goin through my life, searchin through my soul
Seein my life spin completely out of control
Forsakin all, tryin to do everythin myself
Thinkin only of money, and how to gain wealth
Leadin a miserable life, feelin depression comin on
Not knowin why, I lie and wonder on my front lawn
Do I really need this life I want to find the end
Not knowin how to express it to any of my friends
Guilt and fear arise in me, what is it I need to do
End it all now or find a way to reach out to a few

Mind racin, heart pumpin, my world spinnin
Anger surgin, fear grippin, devil lookin grinnin
Take a gun, take a knife, send myself for a ride
Not knowin where I’ll end up, in this suicide

Lettin this world slowly eat away at my life
How can anyone alone stand through this strife
To many problems, to many things to get done
If I do it, who cares, I’m only a person of one
Only thing to look forward to is disappointment
And every day it seems there’s a fly in my ointment
I can’t understand, I could do it with such ease
And it would be quick, quick as a breeze
Still not knowin, I approach the rooftop
Gotta get rid of this pain, gotta make it stop

Mind racin, heart pumpin, my world spinnin
Anger surgin, fear grippin, devil lookin grinnin
Take a gun, take a knife, send myself for a ride
Not knowin where I’ll end up, in this suicide

Standin there I realize with one final thought
What of the smiles and laughter I had brought
What of the times when I was truly happy
What of the times I was eating with my family
Then I remember at church what the preacher said
His words kept on spinnin around in my head
Christ loves you and will always be your friend
Even when it seems the trials will never end
So I prayed and asked Jesus to heal my soul
And all at once my life was in His control

Mind racin, heart pumpin, my world spinnin
Anger surgin, fear grippin, devil lookin grinnin
Take a gun, take a knife, send myself for a ride
No way, no how, I’m not commitin this suicide




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