Lemme see if this works...type a WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOLE LOT, and that makes it true...Pssf...I'm coming with THE TRUTH anyway.


Let me start out by saying that I am not a backstabber. I don't even feel like I've been stabbed in the back. I feel that people have drawn their lines in the sand and that is that.

With that said, let me once and for all set the record "str8".

Regarding my "relationships" with people on this site:


1. Cali: I was never cool with. Cali has been a homophobe/bigot from DAY 1. This kid has done nothing FOR ME, and hence I have no association with him. He dropped a diss to me and that was that. At one point, he saw that I could actually rap and wanted to collab. That NEVER happened.

2. Phenom...I actually NEVER had a crush on Phenom. I have spoken to Phenom on this issue and it's resolved. He tends to make anti-gay remarks and be homphobic. The problem was this. He'd make anti-gay remarks then come at me on MSN like we're cool. That's ridiculous. I can't get down with that. That's like a racist being a bigot then coming at me on AIM like "SUP DAWG!" Hell naw...I have no beef with Phenom.


3. Lady Fiya...was flat out OUT-OF-LINE to give me a "reprimand" like she did in that Rv Idol thread. She clearly has her favorites. That's fine. My issue with her simply was, stop down talking people who respected me. She did it before. She did it more than once. It's irrelevant. I mean, if I had to come up with a reason I don't like her, it's because she's a follower now. I can't respect that. Otherwise, she's not worth my beef. PERIOD.


4. Triple N...I'm not going to rehash the past. But, what I said was true. Triple N has a legitimate reason to deny my allegations to preserve his image (net or not). NO ONE knows what truly happened except me and him. And, that's all that matters. The fact is, APEXX (in his LUNACY) thinks Triple N has some deep respect for him when he doesn't. In fact, I'll put 100 dollars on the fact that Triple N "respects" me even more than he does Apexx cuz Apexx is a damn know it all who doesn't know shit about me. I have NO BEEF or problem with triple N. IN fact, we talk on AIM all the time, and I mean DEEP conversations about life and art and the world. He's probably deeper than you all realize. So, Apexx, STFU and stop trying to paint a picture you can't see.


5. Leady....I'm cool with.


6. Nostradamus...I'm cool with


7. Carson Jet...I personally never liked or disliked carson jet...I think he's cute...lil jockey kid..haaa...His voice annoyed me...other than that, it was playful beef with me...He even gave good feed on my tracks.


8. Ike...I never disliked...but I don't boost his shit like the rest of RV and don't plan to...sorry...If he thinks he deserves special treatment cuz some people (LF,LV) have pumped his head up, you got another thing coming. If he disagrees with how I ran Rv Idol, it's DULY NOTED. I can respect a disagreement. What I can't respect is him transforming into a raging ASSHOLE and calling me fags and homos...that's unnecessary and only confirms that he's always had the propensity to do so.


9. Ranks...Never had a problem with...if he disagrees with how I ran Rv Idol 1, then he isn't making as big a deal out of it as some other people.


10. Anyone else on RV who Apexx claims I stabbed in the back or have beef with: If someone makes a move and disrespects me, then they are on my shit list.PERIOD. There are no second chances. Some relationships I've ended because I refused to be someone's footstool. I am not a fool. Other relationships have naturally waned. There's nothing wrong there. The people who are cool with me will remain cool with me because we have an understanding and a MUTUAL RESPECT for one another. If the people who supposedly beef with me can't get with that, then they'll be beefing with me forever. Contrary to popular belief, I DO NOT like beef or confrontation. And, the facts point to the obvious. I'm "friends" with more people on RV than I'm enemies with.PERIOD.


Now...The accusation that I'm an "attention whore"


Funny...To me, everyone who accuses me of that is probably a bigger attention whore. Let's examine the facts.

1. I make threads about my life. YES. BUt, doesn't everyone? Sure, I may make more, but is that a crime?

2. Apexx has been my biggest critic in this area. But, the fact is, he posts as many if not MORE threads about his LIFE than I do.

E.G. "Which car should I get."

Come on people. Why in the hell would I car about that? Seriously, isn't this a rap site?

Apexx types NOVELS thinking that that qualifies or validates what he says is true. It doesn't

The point is...

APexx DOES NOT know me.
Apexx DOES NOT know everything.
APEXX is a KNOW IT ALL.

I do not respect nor like that person.PERIOD.
If he has an eternal issue with me, then so be it. But, to me, he's a lunatic.

He's taken my ideas and run with them. Rv Idol 2 was accused of being similar to his idea. But, I have NEVER READ THREADS ABOUT HIS TOURNEY AND UNDERSTOOD HOW IT WORKS. In fact, I still don't know the premise of his tourney. I've tried to shy away from it because of the bullshit surrounding my exclusion FROM IT.

Asking Mad Dog to diss his family is complete LUNACY. I'm telling you. Apexx has NOT been truthful her. On AIM, he mentioned that he's been in real estate for 10 years. Well, I'm not a genius, but that would make him 13 when he started. Now, that is possible, but NOT LIKELY.

Here's my perception on the true scenario.

Apexx is at least 35 years old. This man is a lonely soul and knows how to attack me because his life is so miserable. If he was so damn successful and happy, why waste your time on an i-net site full of TEENAGE boys making yourself look smart? I will readily admit that I am a homebody who goes out only occasionally and would rather spend the evening in front of the TV watching a dope ass movie. If I'm guilty of something here, it's being honest. I am brutally honest about my feelings. I am an open book. THAT'S WHAT MAKES IT SO EASY TO HURT ME AND DISS ME. But, that also means that I'll live and experience life on a level most people (including Dooms) won't. I'm not afraid of being hurt, that's why I experience love on so many levels. That's who I am. I am a very passionate and emotional person. It's in everything I do. When I started playing golf some years ago, I practiced hours a day, everyday, for months and months until I could finally hit the ball. I read books, watched videos, took lessons. I was passionate as hell about it. Now, I'm a local celebrity at my home course. People know I got game and my record this summer was 60-8. I fucked mofos up left and right and this was the most successful season ever. What's the point? The point is, I take things personally because I'm a COT DAMN person. Show me someone who isn't full of emotion and I'll show you an icebox. I just express the good witht the bad. You can not get one without the other. When Im happy, it shows. When Im sad, it shows. There's nothing to be ashamed of there. I just feel that people in general don't allow people to be themselves for fear of that they'll have to deal with their true feelings.

But, this is a cotdamn rap site. Can we please get to the business of rapping?
My sexuality should not be an issue unless I or you make it one. Saying "OMG DUDE, THAT'S SOOOO GAy" is middle schoolish and immature. That's what damn near every 13 year old child says.

I graduated valedictorian from my high school with a 4.0 GPA...
I went to college for biology and graduated with a B.S.
I've worked in the health/fitness field for years now...But, I'm shifting gears

For the 1st time in my life, I'm contracting myself out and moving into self employment...

I'm about dreams and making things happen...I love to learn and I love to analyze and try to improve myself...

How many of you hear can honestly say that you know your faults and vices? I can. I can readily admit that I have a temper and that I struggle with things at times. BUt, who doesn't have their OWN issues to deal with.

I think Apexx and whoever else needs to worry about HIMSELF and stop trying to make HIMSELF look better by shitting on someone who already admits he's not perfect. Now, the question is, CAN YOU ADMIT THAT YOU'RE NOT PERFECt?

I remember back to when I was going to battle Dooms and I found out that he got info from Triple N...Triple N as smart as he is DOES NOT KNOW EVEYRHING and DOES NOT KNOW MY FAMILY.

The only thing you know about me or my family is what I tell you. BUt, I will say this.

Yes, I do have a sister. IS she gay, you need to ask her that. I can't speak for her. Is she on this site? NO. My sister is very talented though. She can make beats and she raps as well. She speaks Japanese and can do graphics...As far as I'm concerned, my 16 year old sister is more MATURE than this 35 year old excuse for a man.

In closing...

I draw my line here.

I DO NOT like Apexx...I have NO SExUAL attraction to Apexx...I wish to make it known that I DO NOT respect Apexx...He is not someone I would mold myself after.

I am gay. BUt, that DOES NOT give Apexx or anyone else the right to be disrespectful to me or the gay community because you're on a web site. Let's say Apexx does actually have a job and a bizz? Do you think you can discriminate against gay people because you know or suspect they are gay? You'd have a lawsuit slapped against your ass so fast you wouldn't know what hit you. And, YES, you WOULD lose.

Don't play me out.

You need to stop frontin and be a decent human being. If you are lonely in life Apexx, then I have NOTHING to do with that. I know for a fact that I was online from 6PM satruday afternoon until 1:00 AM Sunday last week...Guess what, YOU WERE TOO. So, were was your girl dawg? Why weren't you out living the life? Oh, I know, you just wanted to "waste time" arguing with Teens on the i-net.

DEAL with your own life. Stay the fuck out of mine and I won't have a problem with you. Insulting me for being gay is ridiculous. And, the people on this site eat it up because it reminds them of their school/playgrounds...it's fucking immature...Of course you're going to "rip" me talking about how the "faggot" likes to "suck dick" blah blah...

and everyone here BURSTS into laughter because it's sooooo hilarious?

That's ALL you have on me as far as I'm concerned.

Oh...that brings me to yet another point. I have ZERO REASON to lie on this site.

#1...I am NOT the only gay person on this site but I refuse to out my friends.

#2...Apexx has accused me of being a "pervert" because I "flirt" with young boys...yet another LAME accusation

I know for a fact that You've made sexual references on a board full of teenage boys, as you put it. I'm not a teenage boy. Neither are you. So, technically, NO ONE is supposed to talk about or post sexually explicit material on a RAP site anyway. I joke around with people like Meta-4 and Colby...But, NOTICE, it's in plain site for everyone to see it's jokes and games...My DICK doesn't get hard when Im jokin around on an i-net site like "YEA, LEMME GRAB YA ASS"


pssf...another example of the dual standards that ruin society...If I Hoz of LV (both of whom are 18 +) make the statement "Oh, nice pics, ur cute"...and the kid is under 18, does that make them perverts?



I am not a door mat for NET BULLIES (as psychologists call you) to walk on...Don't take your homophobia and frustrations out on me.


I'm hear to make music, which I'VE BEEN DOING.


PERIOD.

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I'm Talented.Period.

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