honestly there is to much pride involved with body building, to much of an ego.
and adam, the day your soul doesnt reach that next level? what do you mean by that?
and weak or lost? im not weak but lost perhaps? yeah. sick of drinking, smoking, partying to escape reality,yeah its all pointless, and doesnt get anything done nor make me feel any better the next day. all that ish does is fill a temporary void,
its all the same ish thats getting me no where but a job that doesnt pay ish, i get paid commission but its only like 12 to 14 an hour, you cant start a family on that kind of salary.

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"the loudest one in the room is the weakest"- frank lucas..