My struggle starts from the first eye opening,
thoughts of no job no money come flooding in.
Minimal energy less then adaquate food supply,
theft be the last option added to my life lived as a lie.
Im no longer proud useless weak my heart sinks,
i gamble heavy i only dont win because of a jinx.
Maybe i gambled too much i used to be lucky,
now its like i nearly win only for the devil to fuck me.
So much against me every win im paying for like a sin,
this wasnt in the rules i lose even if i find that win.
I hope i find it within to stop this addiction beating me,
for anyone doubting its truely as hard as stopping herion.


Quick lil freestyle.... was gonna be a deep and alot longer piece but iv gota chip as my mate needs my laptop.