yo against my own will i stand by my own reflection
when i'm around niggas i get through witout detection
thats why my bro didnt survive and do his good intentionz
havin problems wit the crew and didnt hear from cruel intentionz
my skillz are growing but is my courage still going
right now girls are sick of the way i'm flowing
every day he gets closer but i got to fight it
he doesnt seem to go away and doesnt mind it
the mutha fucka is gettin to me and i'm following it
god tells me i'm with you and will never go away
he's the one i can depend on when that fuckin day comes
i'm gettin so sick and tired of beatin and bustin gums
my life isnt good and it will never fuckin be so clear
every day i wish i would die or fuckin dissapear
i grew up wit a abusive father and mother that couldnt care less
all they did was mallested and played around and step on my neck
i sick of this rap is all i fuckin got and dont forget god

chorus x2
to i'm so confused
always bein abused
to this day still forgottin
i'm one step closer to the edge
you dont seem to go away
but i'm still confused

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