~Spirit Submerged~
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Curious feeling....lookin over edge of cliff
time has come now....for death I wished
feet rise, eyes close....air lifting my shirt
wishin for worse...pain...missing the hurt
sudden shock....no feelin...loss of breath
pause for stress..press..caused on chest
eyes bubble..blood stops..lungs collapse
wantin other choices but that time has past
should of thought before...but never relized
the pain I'd cause...the look in others eyes
slowly i fall....scared....cant see the depth
devil has found me....marked me with a hex
I'm blessed...wit hatred...for self and others
still smutherd...in water...why must I suffer
but I've chosen this fate...forced my wake
no i cant complain...wit the choices i take
waves thrash above...air...I cant catch enuff
legs flale about..sudden danger such a rush
heart slowing.....arms weak from pressure
how far have I gone? its to hard to measure
memories flash...sunday school teachings
bike rides wit father...Oh what was i thinking
how could I do this...so selfish in my acts
jus a hellish fact..im done..takin soul to max
a price on beileving? not thinking wit reason
I turned my back to god...who was i seekin
I searched for truth....and found my awnser
at the bottom of this lake...man the chance of
figuring out the past...thats all I thought about
headed strait for hell...path to heaven in doubt