Alter Ego


time to get into the life on a man named Coolie Sheppard...........also known as 13th Disciple..............True Story............................................. ...or is it?




Intro

emotions already toppled and overexceeded the charts of anger
pain and torment/a day was a moment of silence a week was
actions of violence a month was holes in a building we rent

had rather dwelled in a tent then occupying space wit a partner
full of vengeance and scorn/once filled wit joy and delight but
numerous fights causes feelings regretting the beginning of being born

at nights i silently mourned and silently wept tears of frustration
and emotional mental defeat/an invisible barricade separating
our flesh from even connecting with the soles of our feet

ingredients of barley and wheat in a liquidated state the liqour
causes the mental to be perplex/mad at the fact discussing topics
of problems after heated unimaginable sex

actions complex wuz diagnosed wit schitzophrenia prescriptions
for the moment kept my ALTER EGO hidden/but felt my EGO being
ALTERED after purposely openin my pandoras box which is strictly
forbidden

one half luvs the kiddin and playin but concentration and
medication kept the beast for a moment encaged/percieving an
incredible act of violence from words changin into a monster when
this hulk is enraged

a certain spark engages systematic destruction in my emotional
physical being/losin all control like a seizure the inner madness even detains the penises abilities to control the acts of peeing.....


Climax

already exhausted from a day of supportin my family but the
lioness was in wait for her prey/walked into the predators
territory steadily wishin i was one of the victims of timothy mcveigh

tried to keep my anger at bay when informed one of my childrens
blood samples should be analyzed to prove its my seed/knew
only a matter of time to calamity but restraining cuz the eyes from
the mouths that i feed

keepin calm was a deed from continous bickering until finally she
decided to take it to the limits/my disturbed and deranged ego
was revealed from pictures of a nigga recently being in it

now i'm in to win it conquer this battle wit death from my hands
hearin screams as the door comes to a shut/choking wit all of my
might her lifeforce slippin away can't believe i'm actually killing
this slut

'daddy?'........'WHAT!!'.....comming back to my senses realizing my
son was watching asking what am i doing to mommy/'daddy...are
u mad because of the fact mother was laying in bed with her
special friend Tommy?'..........


Resolution

in myself it was good verses evil anger and love was emotions
that dwelled and pertained/but it was anger and evil that
controlled me......it was anger and evil that got me detained

not legally sane was the verdict chosen for the brutal acts
committed against all of my fam/believeing killing two of ur kids
and their mother was acts of a satanic uncontrollable mentally
disturbed man................









Proverbs 21:19 ....'better to dwell in the wilderness, then with a
contentious and angry woman'........



















Amen























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