aaaaaawwww. I see. lol - still weird to me. But thats why art is interpritive. I see different things from it. I think you got a mad challenge to overcome your weakness to it (the knife), and I think you sub-consciously understand that and thats why you write about it. On paper the knife can't see how you feel about it, or that you know it mocks you, and you're trying to explain your submissiveness to anyone who will hear. But again thats me psyhcologically profiling and trying to understand the artist, and maybe im way off. But again - everyone sees the world different right.