My name is Selah David and I'm a 16 yr. old male living in Detroit. I been a poet for about the last 5 years. I expect and respect honest criticism, and i f u got sumthin u want me to check out lemme know.

I'm sittin here at the foot of the bed
Askin God for forgiveness for what I just did
I look over my shoulder at you disgusted
Wondering why I stay in the same predicament
Why do I keep giving in to this addiction
Knowing everytime I experience this high
It's a painfully easy prediction
That I'll be consumed by an uneasyness when I come down
And the weight of my sin sets in
Somethin told me not to listen when you said "hit this"
But still I did as you instructed
Though it went against my better judgement
I adjusted my feelings to my addiction
To fufill the desire for what we both lusted
And trusted that this would make everything more right
And with every thrust hoping that you take me...high...high...higher
Even then I realized the overall consequence
But I must admit
That I did'nt give a shit
Cause if just one hit could melt away the pain inside
Then I was all for it
Spoon feeding each other the fix for our addictions
Too bad we're inmates in two different prisons
See you wanted control and I needed love and attention
See I lusted for your love more so than your physical
As a result of mental abuse
When I was led to belive
That because of my ugliness, of love I was unworthy
Not in those exact words, but often comments were made
That suggested no one would ever love me
So I began to wear my heart on my sleeve
In hopes of proving to myslef that someone does want me
But still I wasn't secure enough in myself to find myself attractive
So I felt that everyone else viewed me the same
I was tryin to do the best with the little that I had
But still cakeless I remained
Until you came
And I wanted you so bad
And it would've been a shame, but I did'nt have pride in the first place
You had me awestruck over a smile and a compliment
Not knowing the full content of the character you played
I let you reason to me that the only way we could truly experience love
Is if it was made
So with my desire for love inclined
I said fine
Though in my mind I knew it was'nt the right time
But you said "hit this"
And I did
And I was...high...high.higher
What keeps me coming back is the memory of the first time
So I decided to be exclusive with you
With all the wrong reasons in mind
As I digested the ear candy of sweet lies
Until you decided you wanted to leave
And everytime you tried I'd beg and plead
Letting my fear mainfest itself in my stiffness you would soon recieve
You were officially my weakness
Cause I wanted you to leave...I needed you to leave
I needed to be released from the bondage of my addiction
But I didn't wanna lose the closest thing to love in my life
That's why I'm still laying here next to you
Waiting for another chance to get high...