soon to be audio..just need a beat..might have my girl sing the hook for me..but yeah..enjoy..

U mutha fuckas just don’t know how I feel..
Sit and question all my people cause I don’t know if they real..
All my scars from childhood aint never been healed..
So retract ya statements when u tell me to calm down and just chill..
I got pain bottled up, all my struggles for years..
So understand my troubles, when u see me swallowed by tears..
Been hallowed by fears, so I follow bottles of beer..
They got they own problems, so y look to my peers..
Don’t give a fuck about my father, so y even bother..
Like im live n life in a labyrinth how im constantly toggled..
Even stars in trouble, so who after should my life be modeled..
Aint got a reason to live, fuck pride, my whole characters been swallowed..
Got a confession, none of my lifes steps have ever been lessoned..
So I question my methods, and keep request n my blessings..
Im tired of stress n, lord please just put me to rest quick..
Y should I continue to breathe when ive never been respected..

Please don’t tell me u feel me and understand my pain..
The difference between me and u is im still struggle n today..
U walked through light showers, im stuck in acid rain..
Ya river runs smoothly, while blood is flaccid in my veins..
Tussle n in my mind like I cant make a decision..
Been paint n lyrical pictures in my head descriptive of prisons..
Got a knife in my hand ready to make an incision..
Slit my wrist, cut my throat, im that guy nobody il be miss n..
Y u trip n, say im slip n, momma please just calm down..
Y u care if im in the ground when u was never around..
Pound for pound im a loser, voice roars loud wit no sound..
Don’t bother to contact the law cause I don’t wanna be found..
Y hug n me now, I put the gun down, all of a sudden u proud..
Before it was like I had a muzzle over my mouth..
Now people wanna hear me, when I literally wanna move down south..
If u didn’t know me then, really don’t know me now..

My girl left me right at the lowest point in my life..
Shit aint right, thought u was supposed to be my wife..
Now I sleep lonely, pillow filled wit tears at night..
But I cant just let u go, so I wont give up the fight..
Lil kids see my pain, tell n me it’ll be okay..
But I don’t see no way, heart gets pushed away..
Feelings left astray, the world, I left today..
I cant deal wit all the struggles, the stress, the pain..
Noth n my life is right, so I constantly walk left..
I no longer feel bad, be n upset is what I expect..
Clothes wet from tears, I stay wonder n whats next..
Never really seemed to no god, like im satans best pet..
Now ive dried my tears, got my lies to cover my fears..
Tell n myself im rich, that’s y I buy all these bottles of beer..
Throw the throttle in gear, might as well shift up a few years..
I know whats next, its hell on earth, and im stand n right here..