hmmm...I'm not finished this one yet, but I was just wondering how ya'll think it's going...I'm in the middle of the second verse right now...oh, and does any one know where I can find beats to use with my songs??? Just wonderin', tell me what you think and know. peaz.

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Back in eighty-six my birth mom left "me" "be"\\
Abandonned since birth, I became government "property"//
Many people felt sorry cause I was all alone you "see"\\
No father or mother, it was just "me"//
Now I look back on the crazy thought, it's "disgusting"\\
I couldn't picture doing that to no one, not in my wildest "dreams"//
Spent my first christmas in foster care, all "alone"\\
I had to wait six weeks till I had a "home"//
In a "hell hole", but I didn't know any "better"\\
Too young to even fell the rain and stormy "weather"//
If my biological parents don't want me, "then-who-does?"\\
My ma's busy drinking she's probably on the "bend-and-buzzed"//
Skipping school just like she skipped out on her "kid"\\
If I ever met her I'd question how she had the will to "live"//
A "life" of "lies", "hiding" the truth behind fifteen year old "eyes"\\
No matter how hard I "try" I can't imagine without beginning to "cry"//
I'm unwanted, not "needed", one day I'll haunt them, I mean "it"\\
She could not have "forseen it", soon I'll make her "bleed", "bitch"//
She'll regret her actions and I'll find that I was a "mistake"\\
I was at the wrong place at the wrong time, but now it's too "late"//

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Abandoned
No place to run no place to hide
Branded
A mistake, even if you try
Landed
A home of hiding feelings deep
Stranded
With nothing left that's worth to keep

-verse-
Did I inherit her eyes or maybe her just part of her "personality"//
Giving me up, I don't understand but I wish I knew the "hurt", to "see"//
How hard and painful the experience payed toll on her "life"//
To be fifteen years old with a baby, in school, how do you do "right"?//
What choice do you make when there's only a few "options"//
Give it up or abortion, she made the right choice with "adoption"//
But here I am now with no clue as to who she is and "why"//
So I sit here for hours just wondering, fuck it, I shouldn't even "try"//
All I know is she left me there in the hospital that night by "myself"//
Doing that to a 'baby', she mustv'e been 'crazy', she needs "help"//
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