i wasn't going to write a piece about this but i did....
an epitimy of my life's greatness downfall..the girl at table six


cold lonely i was sitting in the back.
a cop car arrested for writing graff.
sad feelings made my heart retract.
and bad healings made me ask...
wheres the love at?

lets go back to the day......

work on a bad day i was looking for something.
was it nothing or was it the meaning of loving.
its disrupting how i daydreamed and re-filled.
the half empty pessismist glass that seeks real.
love what it is what it isnt i saw her at an instant.
table six is the girl with meaning of my existance.
eva. she sat she laughed and ate with summers hand.
"ma'am do you need a refill?" she didnt understand.
so she laughed and my eyes caught her who it be.
and i saw her smiling gaze dance in my vision beautifully.
soon to be the one that i crave and named sweetie.
she speaks so sweetly those late nights see me.
i listen to her beautiful laugh as she watches t.v.
believe me she relieved me made a simple escape.
that i could go to when i needed it. simply great.
at wake we continued to go showing politeness rudely.
eva has made anger managment and X2 my fav. movies.
she talks so cutely when she speaks it sings.
this foxy chick races through my heart 'n' shes only 16.
and she's my drug for the lonesome nights in the cupboard.
i dont know that much. but i know that i love her....

so eva....

maybe you lead me on. lead me through the park.
lead me some more. lead me through the dark.
lead me through anything as long as i end up in your heart.
and mend me with you. and never ever tear apart.

..........the tears are coming.........fuck!

girl i love you and really i fucking hate this crap
you had bad feelings last night? when u were safe at last?
i had a dream. of giving you your bracelets back.
and it tore into my chest i woke my mom up! it made me shout too.
eva your like oxygen i cant fucking live with out you!

fuck........me

........................................
look at me. sitting here on my floor. crying
like a little kid. yeah. thats me. thats what
love will do to you. eva. i dont know if there
is anything i can say that will make you
want me more than ryan. if there is. can
you pretend i said it? i will do anything
for you. and i will always be here for you.
no matter what. give me a call if you want
........i love you





hey you readers out there. i know
this shit sucked. because i cant
think about rhyme scheme and
multies and shit right now. i am
just trying to let my heart out onto
this page. so dont critique me about
that kind of shit...look at my feelings
through my artwork....






















thank you for listening.

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