My first open mic......Blame?

My dreams mislead, either the noble road or path of greed//
Seed within, in deep:demons feed, deep within my soul it breads//
Makes it hard to breath, got me questioning the lord above himself//
I know he provides my health, yet Im left askin him what else?//
I don't question exsistance, except possibly what I meant by these questions....//
Are that I made them to question fate, how orthodox are God's lessons?//
Or should I place blame on society? Slappin' restrictions when I try n' speak//
Or the glimmer of hope made appear to vanish in front of my eyes, entirely//
Or maybe the pressures of today, elders expected me to look a certain way//
Talk, walk, and live a certain place, shun hip hop and slap a grin to my face?//
There's the dark shadow of hate, discrimination, hard hidin' from racism//
Wit whites n' blacks hatin' skins, who cares about color? Then again look at God for makin'em//

Today and everyday, lost a little spirit thats gone away//
Prayin' to a higher place, hopin' I can keep a little to stay awake//
From eternal sleep, my mumured speach ignites like a flame//
Mother? Father? God? My conscience urges me to seek the blame//

Is he punishing the world for damaging the air and trees? Or just me?//
I can't see past the haze,seems commercialism got me to the point I cannot see//
What has world sucome to? Goverment, UN, laws...are all irrevelant//
To the point people blowin themselves up and a dunce is granted President//
But a teen will never get, a chance to express himself, never the benefit//
It's just "Look good for the 6 o'clock news" and that my friend is the end of it//
But I don't feel anger, that'll lead me to become the teen stereotype//
And blame the world for my life, take away my pain with gun or knife//
But that's not me, I live nearly on the verge of expressionless actions//
My theory: If life throws bricks of shit then why not build yaself a mansion?//
So amongst the pain, my role, my path, my beliefs all stay the same//
Because I do believe in God....For I have no one else to blame........

Today and everyday, lost a little spirit thats gone away//
Prayin' to a higher place, hopin' I can keep a little to stay awake//
From eternal sleep, my mumured speach ignites up like a flame//
Mother? Father? God? My conscience urges me to seek the blame//