Bang Bang ..

Parents neglect me, I've been kicked and shattered
been a baseball player all my life the way I'm beaten and battered
but does it matter? My life, without cause ..
cause everyone else had it better than mine ever was?
No ..didn't think so, but I understand that I'm dead
Whoever thinks they got it worse than me is fucked in the head
It's been said, that an unjust life leads to heavy stardom
n' obviously critics don't know where in the alley I came from
I've changed my style, so you know where I'm at ..
I'd jump off a cliff but my parents would like the sound of that
This cat ain't jumpin'. I'm disobedience gone a muck ..
.. I didn't come all this way for people to tell me I suck
A boy once loved, becomes all and lost. at the foot of the cross
and even the preachers could only TELL ME what I'd lost

*BANG BANG*

Goes the heavy door, bang bang, goes the heavy core ..
I can't even make it around the block, let alone corner store
but even more so, I can go until ya get low upon what ya know
Bullets have shattered my life so fast, I can only wish life was slow
Ya know? .. no, you don't, but don't take the cluelessness harshly
I grew up, guns blazing while you fucks were watchin' barney ..
you can't harm me .. let alone scar me ..I've realized
you can't even cut me, cause I already been cut down to size
layers on layers ..embedded in dirt. My parents left me, still it hurts
but the worst is this curse I lived in the shadows I've lurked ..
I live a lie while I cry and praise suicide, is this life right?
the only life I lead, in the greed of my own big and large flight?
in the night I cry, but don't understand why ..life long torture
I'd give away my belongings, but that story's a scortcher ..

*BANG BANG*

Pillars fall on the toy's of a boy who thought he had it all
his friends didn't make it from the festivities but he did to crawl
Small things like cigaretes, kill just enough of a friendship of mine ..
the fire blazes every night in my mind but still I see no sign ..
Parents BEGIN to neglect me, a story already been told ..
.. And I hate them, which is a story new to unfold
a blunt gets rolled, dad walks in. "Where the fuck you been!"
"Uhh, sorry sir ..I -" he cuts in, "What the hell? Smokes? tonics? Gin?"
My sin had caught me. A dad who hated me found me smoking
which I think is the reason, he didn't know who the fuck he was choking
I spoke mean, and in the end, I grabbed the gun next to the beer
.. And when I blew my hatred away ..I gave a new meanin' to cheers
I put all these years of abuse and obtuse languages behind ..
and when mom walked in, it was only instinct ..what I had on my mind

*BANG BANG*