say what u wanna say, call this fuckin shit if u want, i dont give a fuck, this is how i feel

I lay back in my bed, thinking and contemplating suicide//
How ya supposed ta survive, when ya parents don’t even want u alive?//
But Yo I try,... yet nothing is ever good enough for em//
I can’t stand their fuckin ass’s I just try and ignore em//
But their hate stabs me like a knife straight in my eye//
I can’t count on two hands how many times that I wished I would die//
Now I’m not a bad guy,.. I’m just a kid that raps and has average grades//
I wont take the anguish anymore, its time all yall mother fuckers paid//
I’m only 17 and I can’t believe half the shit I’ve been through//
Electrocuted and stabbed twice, has that shit ever happened to you?//
To tell the truth,... I ain’t afraid of death anymore//
If that fucker rings the bell, I’ll greet his ass and let em right in the door//
That fuckin voice in my head keeps repeatin “Just Kill yourself Ill”//
Maybe I’ll just slit my wrists, nah that be too much of a thrill//
Instead of bleeding slowly to death, I think I’ll blow a hole right through my heart//
On the outside I look normal, but inside I keep fallin apart//
I don’t even think people would even care if my sorry ass was gone//
They’d sit in silence for a second before they carried their happy lives right along//
As I sit in my room, my radio booms as I hold a glock 9 up to my throat//
While yall people probably reading all the fuckin bullshit I wrote//
I can’t even think anymore,... the pain inside keeps getting bigger//
My last words are “FUCK YALL” as I Cock back and pull the trigger//