It's hard for me to make this dicision, but after some thought I have finally made it.

I'm gone.

That was the decision, now here is the rant. You see, things just aint the same. Times are changing. And I always have a problem adjusting to things when they change. I like things being the same. Y'know what I recently found out? Playing the Atari with a friend is waaaayyy funner then any games for the PS2 and whatnot. Cause I stick with the old school. But only because I don't like the change. I mean, for all my time in middle school my wardrobe was directly out of the 80's. I was mega-retro. (Although, part of that was due to the fact I'm poor and I was wearing my brother's hand-me-downs.) But I never wanted to go to middle school in the first place, I wanted to stay in fifth grade. I didn't want change.

This poetry board has changed a lot. I tell you I barely recognize any of the names of the folk here. But even so, I could only name a handful of people I ever consistently checked upon checked with anyway. And that handfull of people aint even here no more. And even when new people come along I can check upon check it with, it still aint the same. Cause they go.

I think seriosly am pretty sure that varentao is like the only dude who consistently is reading my material. I honestly wish I had the vigilence and diligence to read all of his. But I'm a bastard and I can't.

In fact, I don't even know why I'm writing this. There isn't going to be anyone reading it. Then again maybe I'm only doing this for myself. It's therapuetic or something to vent. And if that is the case, it only proves I'm a bastard.

Y'know nearly everything I've said to people on this forum has been sincere. I don't know how many other people can say that, but it's true. I wonder if anyone ever appreciated what I wrote. Because I tried to write more than just a few lines that summed nothing more than "yeah, good job" and that scheiße. Stupid scheiße at that. I always tried to write something that actual ment something whenever I replied to anyone's peice. Because I generally was able to appreciate the effort, the work, and the creativity people put into their poetry. Anyone that ever appreciated what I wrote, good or bad, then thank you for checking upon checking me. And for those that I was nothing more than the proverbial notch in one's mousepad... well... fuck it.

Y'know what else? I'm not a poet. Y'might think cause I'm on a poetry board that I'm a poet. But I'm not. I'm nothing really. At first, I was just someone who had words in his head and could coincedentfully type nearly as fast as he thinks. Then, for a while, I became someone who wanted to test the boundries of poetry. And break the limits and see how far he can go with creativity of the words and still call it poetry. (Even when there were no words.)

But in all the pieces I ever wrote... I was not a poet. I'm not a poet now. And I probably never will be a poet.

Anyway, sorry for the rant. The bottom line is I'm gone. I'm going to go and surf the proverbial information super highway of Al Gore's called The Internet. Maybe I'll find some place else to chill. But I highly doubt it. I'll come back here eventually. But when I do things will have changed. Things will be so distorted and disfigured I won't even recognize the poetry board to rapbattles.com. And I will surely be forgotten.

But... the last thing I want to say is this, and I'm sincere when I say it, there are a lot of talented poets and troubadours on this site in this forum. But this place can't nurture and grow their talents without everyone helping each other out with a kind word here and there, whether that word is constructive or flattery.

Oh... and if anyone reading this is a black female bodybuilder with bulging biceps and a fetish for anal sex and strap-ons, you should email me sometime.

AtraNecromancer@aol.com

~Islam~

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Originally posted by Bruklor Nec is just dumb

I'm taking that as a compliment.

interestin. i read all tha way thru n i supose i was interested in wot u were sayin. i think tha last bit spoke out most to me
"But this place can't nurture and grow their talents without everyone helping each other out with a kind word here and there, whether that word is constructive or flattery"
i think u shood b a writter u seem to kno wots goin on in ur atmosphere and u can explain it in words, noy like most people.
keep up tha work. o n anotha things wot does "troubadours" mean?
peace ~roX~

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Well, I think you should stay as you are one of the few people I like reading peices from consistantly. Do as you wish though, but I think you should stay.

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Necro.. if your goin.. peace.
loved readin your stuff... and i dunno
if its partly my fault things are changin on you
but.. hey, you gotta do what you gotta do.
peace- keep your head up.

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NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! don't leave!!!!!!!!!!!!! i've known you for so long....remember <<<baby blues<<< i know you can't forget b/c u know my cousin to "babygee"

man...you have a lot of talent...talent that some people don't reconize...i agree that the board has changed a lot..and i dont like it 100 percent..but i've adapted....u can just talk to me..lol....well u better not forget me..or i'll take my bee bee gun and shoot u!! hollah baby boi
God bless..1..

Hey I just wanted to say Necro, I enjoyed reading your post and all the responses you sent to mine...But It's up to you wether you leave or not...I just think you should stay...

peAce

Heh. I don't think it was meant to be a piece of poetry, Roxy. But then again, who knows.


Well your presence will be sorely missed. As you said, your replies always have 'substance' to them. And you're a talented writer (see how i avoided the p word?).

Well g'luck wherever you go, and hope we'll see you back here sometime.

Damn, with you going, the 'darkness' will become ever dimmer (er, i mean lighter..?!). I'll try and keep it in relative place.

...resp....

This is a poem. I think. It's a prose peice of text that provokes thought.

Nevertheless I still want to go. It's hard cause this place still draws me in. Maybe it's just a habit. I dunno.

What I do know is I'm frustrated with this place. No one cares about anyone else anymore. There aint no love. It's all one-liner replies. And no one replies back.

Anyway... I'll try and come here, but just to read and reply to other peoples peices. I won't drop anything. It's just not worth showing something I've created and poured at least some of my heart into it and to have no one to care about it. But it'd be unfair for me to allow that to be reversed, so in a sense I got to stay for everyone elses sake.

I just realized I'm ranting again. That sucks. I have this one peice I wrote a long time ago. It took me a year to write because it was actually several poems compiled into one. Maybe this can be a poem. This rant, all combined. Maybe replies and everything. Maybe I'm thinking out of the box. But who says there is a box? Or why think outside the box when there is so much actually inside the box that is left to be explored. Or maybe... you have to think inside the box. Because no matter how you expand your thoughts and create new things, the box is a living breathing entity who is able to grow and adapt. You have to catch the box by suprise. Freeze it, and then shatter it like so much proverbial Sub-Zero fatality. Maybe no one is ever able to think outside the box because they try to do so through progressive means. One step at a time, when in reality the only way to succeed is to do so in one step period. But how can ones own thoughts shatter that which keeps thoughts themselves imprisoned? Which... that question itself only expands my thoughts in a progressive manner, and that in itself is keeping me imprisoned in the box. But to answer, perhaps it isn't a thought that can shatter the box. When a person sleeps... they imagine things they don't normally imagine. But is still locked in the box.

But...

Death, is the cousin of sleep. When you die, all anyone can be sure of is that their body ceases to function. Like so much robot without a battery. And what becomes of ones thoughts? The dead don't think. The brain won't even have subconcious thoughts. Because... the brain is the box.

Think about it... if I'm right in that the only way to escape the box in order to think outside it is truly a sudden one step movement, wouldn't it be safe to say that if the brain was the box then death could be that sudden movement? Your thoughts will no longer be inside of the gray organ.

But therein lies the problem... where are your thoughts?

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Sorry....

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Originally posted by Bruklor Nec is just dumb

I'm taking that as a compliment.

Necro..
I completely understand the issue that is driving you away from RB..But just know that by you leaving, you are only making it worse!! People like you are what this board needs!!
No doubt, you offer some of best, honest, supportive, REAL criticism of everyone on this board, and I sure as hell appreciate that. But apart from that, you need to contribute your own talent too! You steer us away from some of the 'cookie cutter' poetry on this board, you are original and innovative. Its not fair for you to only reply and not recieve, give and not get..
This board needs a revolution..
More people like Necro, who reply to pieces with an honest interest, not just writing some BS to get the people to reply to their OWN pieces. those ppl are the worst.

I dont know..leave if ya wanna leave, but you are part of RB history as far as Im concerned..a vital necessity..when people like you start leaving..nothing good can come of it.
Next Varentao's gonna go!!
*dies*