All this rage bottled up, to keep the goal of a promised land/
I fucked up in Heaven, to come live life as a human/
A gift from God maybe comes to help on my journey/
But along the way, i sense snakes an' bitches who want to destroy me/
It may be Me against the world, i'm fightin my own war/
Lyrical dispense in my mind, display graphic images of gore/
too real to not be scared the threat lies deep within/
of an animal inside me, possibly crawling in my skin/
another persona in me, i can't seem to control/
i can't think straight when i'm angry, and its torturing my soul/
It seems too confusing to me to elaborate on what i have/
And all this drama around me, hint to my violent past/
The aura of its presence makes me scared of myself/
and its the only thing i turn to, when i can't resort to nothin else/
I don't want to hurt anyone, but i don't control my body no more/
And anger causes its power to rise and grow/
I have no more control, the world is cold to me/
Its cold and dark, maybe a bit to dark to see/
I can't take it no more, my life may juss come to an end/
How can i go through with this when only my creator is my Friend/
I ask Him for favors, sometimes he don't answer back/
Or He does but i'm too into myself to face the facts/
I try to live my life and it seems my life is done/
It all leads to this moment, from bad days, to lighthearted fun/
A faceoff against myslef, my chance are none-to-slim/
Because this kid, triggers the control, control given unto him/
and my bodily functions out of a calm state of mind/
to release myself of stress i must resort to this rhyme/
I lost control of my life, like a rabbit in the beak of a large bird/
I get ready for the death of my sanity, and all of a sudden my eyesight grows darker.../


kinda written to Nas' every ghetto beat, but this is actually happenin in my life, i'm not a skitzo or anything, but im havin problems and i'm involved in drama and shit, i finally get smacked in the face by reality...looking for constructive feedback.

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Only God can judge me, Who THE FUCK IS YOU?!