bright and sunny DAY
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this is sumthin new to me
i was never held down by one girl, look what you do to me
i remember when we first met
started kissin and holdin hands like were alredy best friends
and ill be that to you if you just let me
cant let you go, havin you is so tempting
i dont know, i just wanted to be your teacher
but i learn more from you, that alone shows i need ya
plus you know how its like to fall in love
you was wit a nigga who wouldnt show up enuff
and every night had a brand new fight wit ya moms
all of that shit changed when you got wit dis god
i believe this is destiny,
we got together on the only time ever will a date have all three's (3/3/03)
im relyin on my memories, cuz all of them is you
what im really tryna say girl is that i miss you

dark stormy NIGHT
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every night i called you to let you know that im hea
that i love you so much and i aint goin no wea
you on my mind so much cant even think about
nuthing else, not even the thought of you wit someone else
so much to the point im always sayin i love you
mustve sed it so much that it started to bug you
or maybe it was me tryna make you say it back to me
cuz i couldnt helpthink that you would laugh at me
or jus disregard what i sed
another reason you leavin is cuz im fucked up in the head
i know you came over alot to escape ya problems
but now that im not there you need someone to solve em
find a better man GODDAM this is tuff
but i know phone calls everynight aint enuff
didnt matter now if i say that i want you
in reality you need something you can hold on to
GODDAM this depressions killing me
my first thought was wea imma get another girl to start feelin me
if u get another man, i would understand
cuz that means he can do watever i cant
and i always sed you deserve better than me
go find some you love and make a family
cuz im only the past now, a ghost that floats around
you, and makes sure that you smile
and if he ever hurts you
jus remember that this fat muthafuckaz love wont desert you
ill be dea for the rest of your patience
i know why u left me, cuz it hurts ya chest to be waitin
cant be my wifey no more, YOU JUST CANT
wish it go on forever, BUT IT JUST CANT
never once did i doubt you////
but you weak wen u was with me, now im weak without you////
what sucks is i knew this was gunna happen////
i could even see it, my problem was i couldnt believe it////
or i didnt wanna believe, cuz its sad to see////
how im not able to hold to reality////
i thought it was destiny but its destined to be////
that you couldnt take it no more and you dead it wit me////
now im hea thinkin how life cant go on
cuzim THAT SHALLOW to say that i cant move on
GODDAM THIS HURTS for me to say
but you was right wen u sed i only see the negative
never the positive, cuz im not optomistic
you help me out thru it all, so i gots to miss it
gunna miss how we were kissin, revealin our feeling, see
holdin on to you then letting go is KILLING ME
no matter how you feel, YOU THE LOVE OF MY LIFE
boneswifey, the best 5 MONTHS OF MY LIFE

////=the most powerful messege i put out in this whole shit (my opinion)


::songs that helped me cope with this shit::

She Loves Me Not-Papa Roach
Seperate Ways-Journey
How Do I Say goodbye To Yesterday-Boyz II Men
Where I Wanna Be-Donell Jones

theres more but those worked the best for me...plz save me the bullshit bout how sum words dont rhyme or nun that bullshit cuz on the real i dont give a fuck cuz this was words from the heart, and to my knowledge and all those whos hearts been shatteres, this is real poetry in my heart i feel writing this is healing me up nicely, if u have sumthin to say then say it but dont come at me sideways...ight? one

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