I remember tha days all to vaguely, everything we went threw and you didnt play me, i was dishonest to her i began to stray she, didnt know what to say ta me, it was almost a year she was my other half, we shared everything with eachother, showers and baths, had sex and hours would pass, i love you still with all my heart not just a half, but now we seperated for almost like 2 years totally different paths, u saw most of my tears while i was holdin you a time one of the last, i was to end our relationship and it toar apart my ass, i couldnt even tell u with a straight face, water with a salty taste, thats what was left from a respectable father's daughter caught me at the end of the page, every time i hear our song i choke in my throat, what the fuck it's been so long since we've spoke, my high school sweet heart for a while i save ALL the notes you wrote, i was overcome by your personality and your words could make me float, since youve changed, fell in love wit one'a my boys and it seems insane, i hold back all my thoughts wen i'm wit you both cuz it's vane, and i'm not tha type to complain, it was my falut anything ever went wrong the reasons just aren't plain, it was a bad decision and i cant even explain, cant even refrain, not breathin tha same i need to here your amazing voice i came to a crazy choice, i was fuckin slackin on what was REAL call me da lazy boy, this shits deeply crazy boy, "i'm comin down the world turned over, cuz angels fall without you there"(goo goo dolls - black balloon)
After we parted those werds i hadda here over and over, on every station and every where, i still think about you and how special our love was, drink about a few cuz now's stressful and i'm dumb cuz, you know i woulda ended up ya husband but that was then, i missed u so much i dont think i ever moved on, the werds "i love you" have now forever been abused on, they've lost their true meaning since you've gone, but wen it comes to screws my mind had tha loose ones, split personality like ma father had two sons, i wish i could go back and never lose you hun, now i can't do shit, and u've alredy fucked otha doods....shit, more than just a few ppl hit, how could i ever do mah baby evil like this? I was never open enough and honest with you, clever hopin you'd think i was modest it's true, but then it all built up and it felt worse, i looked at life's tilt fuck i felt cursed, you've changed your hair and the way u dress, but this dis-arrange tells you fair me n u is fit to stay best, all the presents i ever got you came from my heart and represents how i felt about you, i loved you from the first time i saw you i was struck, shoved by some adverse times at first u knew me as chuck, i was always jealous of the guys at school you talked to fuck, i can remember tha dances we went to, the question u'd ask and then the answers is sent you, if i could have i would have prevent you but i fuckin sold out like sum popular venue, i've read everything right now that's on tha menu, no prices present cuz my love lives to defend you, but i can't pretend you, felt tha same way, do you? we haven't delt werds in years, in a real conversation about deep shit you would shed tears, i would have bled tears my cleer fears see thru like zero gauge peirced ears, i'm no hero u know that babe i wish i could listin what a preist hears, you were the angel in my life my guide to tha light, i extinguished the flame it wasn't even right, from that pint on my life's been dark and it isn't even night, i dunno what to beleive but fight, resolves problems right, but nuthin i could do can solvem right? I broke your heart and destroyed my own, Smokin was art but it exploited my soul, left me for ded and i lost the grip on my main goal, i tried so hard to impress you than in the end i fuckin left you the asshole who never disrespect you or neglect you, got changed to a fuck-hed who tried to forget you and wen u tried to fix things he wouldnt let you, now things are in a whole new perspective, how he sings his lifes acquired a hole when you left it, wen it's his own fault and his own brain was the weapon, who's own pain he's left to step in can't bare to look when you lips Ever Glisten, i wish my true feelings were never missin, then this no1 would ever have to listen but shit i didnt shed a tear this whole time reminissin.......

i dunno if i should keep typin people might not read if it gets too long.........