the mirror i look in shows no traces of me, only depressed shades of gray
misplaced makeup plastered to this reflected face of cracked cold stone
how did i lose track of myself, its like mistaking cold nights for warm day
i cant begin to discribe myself, who i deep inside somewhere truly am
WHERE DID I GO IN THESE LOST DAYS

i feel like ive cheated out my sister, sold her a fake, coz shes my biggest fan
Mother says she looks up to me, gonna grow up to be actually like you
so does that mean she'll be as messed up and lost with herself like me
or am i now what she'll someday suppose to be
could i possibly be living her life not mine
and to her this will all be wonderful, perfectly fine
all i know in this here is someone else taken my soul over
ive finally relized that this life i live is way over my shoulders
........OVER MY HEAD

i cant belive that ive let ppl control my thoughts, my mind
but i didnt see it, feel it, now im no where that i can find
ive lost track of myself over these forgotten fraud years
living a life as someone else, losing my dreams, forgetting my fears
ive lived a life in someone elses uncomfortable used shoes
two sizes to small, yet i squeezed myself, pushed my way in
thinking that becoming this creature meant i did win
but looking in the mirror i relise now the truth, i did lose
i lost an unimanginable ammont of years in my life
to become something that is not who i am
just who the media wants my soul to be
CANT YOU SEE NOW
i let ads and tv take me over, i let them ruin MY life

just alot of thoughts right now, fooling around with them some

~Tera~
DONT HATE

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